Fan-fucking-tastic

how can one person be so stupid?

2006-01-25T09:23:42Z

Im procrastinating.

This is the last week of this block. still got sooooo much work to do. But i can stay late the next two days before work so i might be ok.

Next week will be like a mini holiday. im looking forward to it.

The weekend was quiet but good.

i had my last day at Craigdon yesterday. They gave me presents (stuff for the flat and creme eggs) and a card, which was nice. unfortuantely they decided to present me with all this stuff straight after my lunch ... so about 5 minutes after i finished smoking a joint. not nice having so many peple watching you when your that baked. I think im going to miss it. its a big change.

From now until i start at BT i can only see Joss at the weekends, which makes me uber sad.

This week has, and will conitnue to be, complete chaos. i spy a reason to get horribly drunk at the weekend.

woops i just failed wednesdays class. My tutor just said its the final day. and me being a tard forgot my USB cable. so one class - FAIL . My brothers working at 11 so he cant come give me it. shit shit shit.

all sorted. my brothers giving to the cable to Soph. and i'll go meet her and get it. saved, just.

want to cry.

bye. xx

Its all a bad dream spinning in your lonely head

2006-01-20T21:45:51Z

So lots and lots has happened since christmas.

Christmas and new year was good. i wont go into detail, but there was much smoking, drinking, laughs and not much sleep or time at home.

I got two new jobs. I started one on Wednesday, its ok but i wont be bothered about leaving it behind to go work at BT. with Ash! Handed in my notice to Craigdon on Monday. My last day is tuesday. I got Monday off though because theres no work for me to do (unpaid) but ill be getting two days holiday pay extra anyway.

So on Monday i will be going into college to try and make an attempt at passing this block. Only one week for all my work to be done. My To Do list is two pages long. In short ..... IM FUCKED.

Yesterday was horrible but I saw Mr Cherry and he insisted on buying me KFC, apparently no-one is supossed to survive on one kit kat for the day... seemed to be going well.

Glasvegas was good. We replaced the glass bong (which nick broke after new year) its plastic but its so awesome. Also got some clothes and a new galss pipe, which is so damn nice, has its own wooden display box and everything.

The Devil Went Down To Georgia is my new favorite song.

Yesterday was Joss and i's year anniversry, i never got to see him it made me sad.
Didnt get to see him today either ... but thats his fault. So not really in the mood to talk to him now, shame he dosen't even know that.

Everytime everything seems to be getting better something kicks me down again.

Oh yeah. I used my entire overdraft and my other bank account only got money in it today, after a week of being empty. gutted.

Fuck knows whats going on this weekend. soph suggested going out, but i dont know anymore. I think Joss andnick and such were suposeed to be going out. But no ones knows details and im not running around sortin shit out this time.

Oh fantastic ... another positive happy go lucky update from doop. Woo fucking hoo.

doopandtea @ 2005-12-21T09:49:00

2005-12-21T09:58:24Z

Well well. its been ags since i was last on here.

Things have been ..... odd.

Long story short. I havent been at college for two weeks. although im here today. I still havent heard from venture which is lame. BT are phoning at the end of Dec so a new job awitas i think. My sleeping/eating/health has been shitty for a long time. I think i am finally sorting out my money problems but im still a long way off being comortable again.

i have a present for MARK!! we must meet up so you can recieve said present. everyones presents will be made better in jan when i actually have some money.

im in college now. our work has been recovered - but half of it wont open. And quarks fucked again. now they see why i dont go. Apparently i have missed next to nothing in the last two weeks.

christmas is soon. im not ready for it. it came real fast this year. have heard barely and xmas songs.

have been spending much time getting stoned. not much drinking however. Thursday night out. friday meet with Joss at some point. last day ill see him beofre christmas - sad.

i hope next year is better.

in case i dont bother coming back on. i hope everyome has a good christmas.

xx

doopandtea @ 2005-11-30T14:19:00

2005-11-30T14:31:12Z

Wow, my internets being right nice to me today.

so. i have being doing much of fuck all just now. its been good. i forgot to go to college on Friday.

Friday was a wierd as shit night but good all in the same. got back to nicks and sat up til 5.30am ish. wne tot sleep.

Saturday was a bit bollocks in all honesty. long story.

Sunday was quiet. i worked mon, tues. and today - i kinda forgot to go to college. i have to go tommorow and friday. so two days out of three isnt bad. hehe.

So today i got up around 11ish and watched tv, then i went and took rockets, so i definetly wasnt going anywhere. then i decided to come online. but this had taken me a very long time to do becase ive gone into a lot of detail to make this.

yesterday me and Joss sat and got wasted and spoke shite at his house it was good.

so heres some stuff i got did.....

I hate resizing.

This was when i was suposed to be at college... 1.30pm ish today.

Right thats all. i have lots of stuff to do before i get thrown out... maybe. erm im poor very poor. i cnat afford anything... i need to buy presents.

im hungry. My brothers coming to college with me. tmmorow - he said he'd buy me breakfast.

bye bye. xxxxx

doopandtea @ 2005-11-23T09:31:00

2005-11-23T09:40:35Z

I dont have an exam today as originally thought. so i could have stayed in bed, im at college, doing sweet fuck all. im pretty hungry too. i think ntoday is going to be a wasted day, lame.

the weekend was good although totally random and unplanned.

Sat: Joss came over. We formulated a plan. We went to ash's and newswed and drank Palm beach and built Joss a rocket. It was shit (i havent made one since i was 14ish). Nick and Sian tols us the movie was later than planned, so we went to see the late showing of resivior dogs. it got out at 1.30am to find out the Sian and nicks movie didnt come out til after 3am. so we went to Moshulu, althouhg i could only afford one shot and a Baileys. Saw Cherie and Tennile and such so it was ok. Went back to Nicks.

Sun- woke up at 2, went to Joss, went home, slept.

Mon-tues. Work, yawn.

Went to joss afetr work yesterday, i unearthed my good rocket from back in the day and afetr some minor repairs, remebered how fucking harsh a good one is. but it was worth it, got buckled on a very small amount. i have none left. However im supossed to get today, so its all good.

Watched Sin City - toally didn't understand it at all. Joss said the ending was good. maybe i should watch it again.

really looking forward to Louises bday. i miss her.

im bored.

xxx

doopandtea @ 2005-11-17T14:51:00

2005-11-17T14:58:57Z

i just found this.

it made me laugh.

i cant remember the link tag and "rich text" isnt working. http://www.livejournal.com/users/doopandtea/2004/11/18/

doopandtea @ 2005-11-17T14:36:00

2005-11-17T14:45:46Z

My interview was his morning. I think it went ok, but its hard to tell. the questions were really hard. their going to write to me in 3-4 weeks after they've finished the other two interviews. so here's hoping.

It might be full time, so i might have to leave college. cant say id really be botherd, but we'll see.

i've been to all my class (bar the first one) today. go me.

havent much else to say really. not alot has happened.

xxx

doopandtea @ 2005-11-16T09:08:00

2005-11-16T09:17:00Z

I got an interview!

with Venture ... for the trainee photographers job i didnt think they'd consider me for!

excited yes, terrified, yes.

i never had a job interview before.

yesterday i worked then i went to Joss's, which was nice. i love him lots. Unfortunately i left my uni rider there so had to fork out £5.40 just to get to college today. lame.

Im still poor but in much less debt than last week.

The weekend was good, on friday i went to sophies and we bantered and drank vodka. on saturday Joss and i went to my work night out thing, it was pretty good, then we headed up to Ash's for a gathering.

Sunday we left town and went to Joss's.

Im in college, my work still hasnt been retrieved and i wish i had actually skipped this class now. so hungry.

im just beginging to get the feeling back in my feet.

thats all for now.

xxxx

doopandtea @ 2005-11-11T16:18:00

2005-11-11T16:20:09Z

They are looking for people to work at Venture! (the photography studios on King street).

I think i might apply for one of the posisitions. i probably won't get one of trainee photogrpaher places as my portfolios a bit shit and im only in the first year of the course that they'd like you to have. but theres others i dont need experience for.

yay.

xx

In time you scream to no one.

2005-10-27T18:53:36Z

I havent updated in ages.

The last few weekends have been really fun - lots of staying up til 6am and sleeping late. I fear it is beggining to catch up with me now though. havent been feeling very well the last few days, all weak and tired and shit, anyway i took the day off college today because i felt like death when i got up this morning. anyway, one more night of good sleep and ill be ok, i hope. Think ive just burnt myslef out - but the next three weekends are all booked up with stuff to do so not much rest going to be happening.

College is still shit - over the hols they updated the system and lost ALL the work everyones done since the start (bar the word stuff but i havent even started that). so i landed up talking myself out of my last class yesterday. So much for starting afresh after the holidays.

I have a report to hand in tommorow and not a single bit of research has been done let alone actually starting it. i also have an essay to do but that shouldnt be too hard, so ill take the notes home and do it at the weekend. maybe.

Im bored in my little rut.

The sad thing is for all the time ive missed - i dont give a shit about it.

Anyway end of that. Ive spent loads more time with Joss over the last week than normal which is awesome. makes me happy.

Im looking forward to halloween even though i have no idea whats going on.

I should stop smoking and taking drugs - but i dont want to. Its quite sad that i really enjoy my little self destructive streak.

Shame there isnt a simple answer to anything.

I saw Mr Cherry yesterday! that cheered me up, it had been like three weeks or soemthing lame. still sucks that barely anyone in the class tlaks to us and all the others are in totaly different days.

thats enoguh bulshit for today.

xx

doopandtea @ 2005-10-09T22:21:00

2005-10-09T21:20:32Z

Why am i being such a bitch to the person i love the most in the world?

You rip me up, you spread me all around.

2005-10-09T20:42:13Z

Man this journal is full of shite.

so heres some more.

This weekend has sucked, bar a few hours on friday night. In short on Friday i just i mean just made it in time for an exam, which i had lost the notes for and didnt understand a bit of it - so no merit and a resit for me. then went to the hub and had to witness the painful chatting up of Jenna by scott leslie - not fun. landed up skiving my last class again, havent been to that in two weeks, and i have a report to hand in so, i think. Anyway got dragged out bowling (which was shit) then went to the RGU Union bar which was good cos at least i had some booze and foklk to talk to. Landed up talking to a guy called Vent - he was cool we know a lot of the same people. but when he went it was boring - third wheel anyone? so i fucked off home.

And there i remained. All plans of going out on sat went down the shitter. Joss came over but it was fairly boring. he went home. today i did nothing.

I hate college, havent been for a full week since i started. dont want to go anymore and i am going to get yelled at again soon. I know its my own fault and im an idiot.

so in short I dont think Joss is wants to talk/see me, so that hurts a bit. I hate my job yet dont know what the fuck to do about getting a new one, i hate college but i have nothing else i want to do, i hate living at home but cant afford my own place, i hate not having anything to do. and im bored as crap.

I shouldnt complain, but im going to, who the fuck cares?

xx

doopandtea @ 2005-09-29T21:38:00

2005-09-29T20:58:09Z

Im bored, and feel in need of a picture entry because its been a while.

and in celebration of me getting a half ounce of grass yesterday (instead of the half o of resin i was expecting) its going to be smoking photos i think. The grass is pretty damn good. knocked me for six last night ... and today. lol

My boy, and nice bowlful of grass.

Some crazy pink eye from a few weeks ago

My bong. filled with ice. best ever.... better than sex, nearly.

Oh my - this smells so damn good as well.

im bored of this now. Havent uploaded many of the photos.

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doopandtea @ 2005-09-28T09:56:00

2005-09-28T08:04:36Z

well its been a little while since ive updated.

friday was spent sleeping and then went to Joss's and got stoned with him and Graeme.
Saturday i slept some more, mooched around the house and opened cards and the such .... including a 'mysterious' second card from my granny which contained an inheritance! i was shocked to say the least.

Saturday night was fun. Much cigar smoking, dancing and drinking. it was decided on sunday that it was a good night because i drank Jaeger and Graeme got straws. lol. Made it back to Joss's, aftyer meeting a guy on the bus who could swallow fag ends and gave me some free pot.

Sunday - we smoked pot til everyone went home, then joss and i took a five hour nap.

Monday. did a whole lot of nothing all day and went into town for drinks with scott and Ash to celebrate his birthday, which was good.

yesterday i worked, it wasnt that exciting. but i got to wash the table which was awesome. soph came over in the evening for banter.

today i am at college and i may go visit joss tonight.

xxxx

doopandtea @ 2005-09-22T16:00:00

2005-09-22T15:07:40Z

Eurgh. The computer system at college has crashed ... again! The net is workijgn but i cant get back onto word. lame.
The last few days ive sat and pissed around on the net.

yesterday i wet to Joss's. It was nice we had fun, i landed up staying and got up at 6.15am! this moring (never agin, 6am is just wrong). So was an hour early for college.

Today has mostly been spent doing fuck all. tommorow will be the same as i have a day off. but im going to Joss's at some point to drop off stuff for sat night and pick up my half o. yay. was sposed to do that today but oh well.

I am only updating to kill time til i can go home and sleep. only half an hour to go.

i think i may be getting a cold... i hope not though.

Euan cant come up for my birthday which is sad. We have to get 11 (ish) people from ellon to tarves at 4am on sunday morning i think.

not much else to say.

xxxx

Got to know before im out of time

2005-09-21T08:52:12Z

LJ Interests meme results

biking:
I used to bike alot. On my little yellow death trap. i like it, but dont do it as much as i used to. also the handebars cracked. oh well. maybe take it up again soon.
comfort:
Who doesnt like to be comfortable? Bit self explanitory really.
fire:
I used to set fire to stuff... sometimes. Imature... yes.
hash:
anyone who knows me will know why this is an interest, no more explanation needed.
joss:
See above
oranges:
oranges are good.
punk:
i liike it... end of.
shameless:
Awesome awesome TV show. i loved it.

And i am shameless to a certain degree so i guess thats relevant too.
strawberries:
So fine. Lotsa sugar and cream and im happy
the offspring:
Favorite band of all time.

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

I was on time for college today (10 mins early in fact). so thats a good start. but im starving, poor and have no idea what im doing. Just did a search for ellon on google (tutors idea) and found "Scotish Swingers" so apprently there are swingers in ellon - im starngled intregiued by this fact and may go find out who they are... but im its teachers or friends parents or anything ill freak out.

Oh so fuckingn hungry. Think im going to see Joss tonight. have to see if i can afford a taxi.
My finger nails are such a mess- all broken and stuff, damn work.

i should maybe go work now.

xxxxxx

15 years til his liver exploded

2005-09-20T17:38:46Z

well i havent updated in a while.

erm... ofspring was awesome - i bought the 'bad habit' shirt ive wanted forever. and Shoping was good although i couldnt afford much. Got a rather cool skirt and a top. really wanted a 'ska' dress i saw in osiris. maybe next time....

Joss came home!! this made me very happy. he brought back Ouzo, which is getting drunk on sat.

erm, the rest of the time has been work/college. Nothing exciting.

On Friday went to a gig at the moorings - but left before the band started cos we were bored. Went to Ash's and had laughs. Saturday, went home and cleaned up etc. then went to Joss's and we sat around and smoked pot all weekend.

I got the embarsing work presentaion of birthday gifts today. Thought id miss that but someone remebered. but it was nice, i got a photo album with 18 on it and a money tin thing 9with some money in it. Also Angie (the moron) is leaving work, today was the last time i ever had to see her - which is good

I think the basic plan for Saturday is meet in Archies at 8pm (its cheap and big and everyone knows where it is so thats a start) and see where we go from there. then back to joss's for gathering - drinking of Ouzo etc.

Im right looking forward to it ... so i hope it works out ok.

im really happy at the moment (appart from college, i actually hate it now), wonder how long this will last?

going to sophs for tea and banter tonight, it been like a week...

xxxx

doopandtea @ 2005-09-10T18:37:00

2005-09-10T17:39:56Z

Anoither update - the gathering is on saturday.

And Nick and Sian are sleeping downstairs. So Ash and Scott - if yoy come (you better lol) you have somewhere comf (ish, well better than last time) to sleep.

i feel sad for Joss:

And the voices told me to blow you away says(me):
exactly. im not looking forward to seeing sian
And the voices told me to blow you away says:
i was glad she wasnt with nick, because right now im angry at her - and dont know what too say to her

oh thats a big exhaust!(quote of the day) (Joss)says:
i will just say that she was selfish and will always be annoyed that she stole my best friend
oh thats a big exhaust!(quote of the day) says:
give or take a few swearwords in there

Poor boy. I love him lots.

So thats Saturdays plan.

xxx

You must die - i alone am best

2005-09-10T17:26:31Z

I was only and hour late for college on friday, better then 2 and half hours the day before lol. It was ok/boring. Met nick outside college randomly so he came with me to archies to meet Ash. Nick left and Scott arrived.

Basically hung out at the flat with ash and scott (til he went out), which was nice. chatted lots. Went into town today and shopped a little and got food- i got a free burger but couldnt eat cos i was full, was my first proper meal in three days though. I bought new hair stuff from lush - doesnt smell as good as the last stuff, but ill give it a try.

Louise text me so i was real happy to hear from her, got her address so i can send her cd down.

Glasgows all aranged, im excited. it'll be right fun.

I smell pretty bad - just got home and went straight online - ill shower soon.

My cameras been found!! im happy, even though dad yelled at me for not taking care of it. what the fuck - yeah i lost it but i knew it was in the house, either in my room or near the comp. it had been buried under a pile of his shite anyway. oh well least i got it back.

I miss Joss but its not long til he comes home - im excited about that too cant wait to see him. im really looking forward to this week.

doopandtea @ 2005-09-07T14:50:00

2005-09-07T13:51:18Z

Elmer Fudd rocks... actually no hes a wanker.

I just found this sentene in my journal update from sep 10th last year. It made me laugh but i dont know what the fuck i was talking about.

Sorry for all the updates, im bored

doopandtea @ 2005-09-07T13:54:00

2005-09-07T13:18:46Z

gash - the college are being stubborn as hell about me changing class, not happy.... unfortunately im stubborn too, so going to make appopintment with Tyreish again... and hopefully she'll do more than send an email this time.

I think ive persauded Genna to come to the pub before tutor... its only library and IT induction anyway - yawn.

Hopefully can talk to Joss tonight.... he makes me happy.

Im really tired ... nearly fell aslepp in Sheilas class today - wave lenght talks, boring.

I should be woprking, but i dont have much to do but draw sketches which is hard when your montage has to be based on an interest. My nly real interests/hobbies are drinking, sex and recreational drugs. Cant really hand in a college project on any of thoose.

xxxx

I try but your still the same

2005-09-07T09:12:21Z

So....

I have officially given up on Sian. I tried sympathy, reasoning everything... even to the point of telling her to "grow up and get on with it like the rest of us". *sigh*. shes being a spoilt child who isnt getting what she wants, and its draining trying to help someone who wont listen to what you are saying.

anyway... have got to speak to Joss the l;ast few days, this makes me happy. i spoke to his mum on the phone too, in the last two days and saw his dad this morning.

managed to miss the bus to college this morning so had to walk to ello. was only five mins late though so its ok. Have finished the fucking quark tutorial already and am 'researching' for my double page spread, peice of piss really. The other class is in today - which makes me happy. and im going to bitch about switcihing to my tutor, again!

Last night i planned to clean my room and find my camera, i did neither... but i did handwash some clothes. new washing machine comes today - yay, i can have my proper clothes back. Mum bought a new cra last night - how random.

Lee made me a silverside sandwich last night, it was awesome.

Tonight i plan on cleaning my room and finding my camera ... maybe.

not much else to say.....

only a week til Joss comes home! miss him lots.

To Joss: i testicle you .... loads more than you testicle me, honest.

xxxxxx

Its a wicked world we live in

2005-09-04T20:32:17Z

I FINALY GOT TO TALK TO JOSS!!! this makes me super happy. and i got to see him on webcam too (all be it exteemly crap webcam). but it was only for ten minutes - which is more than i thought anyway.

He's a bit pissed of becasue Nicks decided to fly home. Sians fucked with him so he's coming home. Which frankly i think is shite. I mean i know this is harsh and my opion is most likely not going to go down well with many people but why should he half to cut his holiday shirt, probs have to pay extra for a flight home and abandon his friends just because shes being over dramatic and wanting him home.

I mean as much as i miss Joss i wouldnt dream of telling him to come home cause i issed him no matter how dire the situation. Frankly i think shes being over dramatic and leaving a myspace blog is a bit attention seeking - they see each other constantly anyway. Grr.

I think it makes me mad because im not a fan of spoiled people and i dont see why she cant deal with one more week. Also maybe im just a bit jealous because shes getting to see Nick fairly soon, just because she misses him, and im not getting to see Joss event though i miss him like hell. all in all maybe its because im selfish, not because shes spoilt.

Anyway - the wedding went well. i really enjoyed it and my cousin looked gorgeous. one of the ony brides ive ever heard of having to gain weight to fit in her dress.

Went to free at the dee with soph today - what i heard was shite. Kinda wanted to fight with a large amount of the little fucks running around there. Soph treated me to pizza hut - awesome.

work tommorow snore. hopefully will be able to talk to joss. when i eventually get home. Not really looking forward to this week. i had plently to keep me occupied last week.

My dad gave me his phone (it hasnt been out the box in like two months) so im happy - its all new and shiny and camera-y. Although ive worked out a few of the complicated things i cant work out how to change the time or how to delete photos. me = thick.

Im missing Joss - but im glad he's having fun. Will be great to see him again. And Joss if you're reading this - i hope your shoulder feels better soon.

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The past is over but tommorows wishful thinking.

2005-09-02T21:10:00Z

Hello. I had a nice day today.

Finished college at 12.30 and met soph in town for lunch. Then we went shopping - got:

Black high heels for the wedding, but ill wear them again cos there a bit cool
A black shirt dress thing (uber short)
A hat, an Angus Young hat to be presise. been wearing it all day, still have it on now.
Some gel cushions for my shoes
deodrant (just thought id add that in there)
A pair of shorts.

Then we sat and drank in Siberia and came home.

I missed Joss on msn, again! this makes me sad. Been trying to keep busy to stop missing him. So i was in town when Sian called to tell me to come online. I feel bad about this - i hope he doesnt think i dont want to talk to him, cos i do, alot, just a little bit less than i want to see him and get a massive hug.

Its my cousins wedding tommorow, i havent been in a church in years, and never to a wedding. tis scary. and my dress is still wet, because i forgot that it wasnt washed and the machine is broken. lame.

I think on Sunday i shall try go to free at the dee with soph.

Louise left today - and i couldnt get hold of her to say goodbye - im so guttted about that. i made her Cd, it had a cover with random photos of us from nights out. Hopefully i can get her address and post it to her.

I still miss my boy - but am handling it much better now. Not that i dont want to burst into tears from time to time.

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You light up my life, you give me hope to carry on,you light up my days and you,you light up my life

2005-09-01T19:14:20Z

Gah! Im so gutted i missed Joss on msn earlier - makes me sad. still miss him tons.

College was fairly boring, im not really enjoying it as much as id thought i would. our class barely speaks, and ive just been bored. Although the tasks and stuff are looking to be good - hard work but good.

I finish at 12.30pm tommorow - change of afternoon class. ~~think im goign drinking with Sian.~~ not going drinking with sian at all.

Saw Chris on the bus this morning - was good to catch up.

havent much to say - still having trouble sleeping - lame. Im sooooo tired.

My brother snapped the lock off our bathroom door today. nice.

bored as hell. Trying to keep myslef busy but its not really working.

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